Realization | University

So, I had all these great blogposts planned for this week and last week,

but somehow they didn't magically jump from my brains to my computer.

Strange, huh?

Things have been a little quiet on the blog, because, well,

life hasn't.

It kinda got in the way of the blogposts.

My parents celebrated their 25th wedding anniversary (crazy!),

and I started classes at uni. 

I'm still trying to figure out what books I'm missing, because yes,

I'm still missing a few. 

My sweet husband let me do some "back-to-school-shopping" a week ago,

not for clothes, but for a new school bag. 

The thing is, I hate backpacks. I really do.

I hate carrying them around.

I look so stupid. 

And young.

But, let's face it, backpacks are the most practical bags

for hauling around books and a laptop. 

So I got a backpack.

But I got a really great looking one,

to stop me from looking stupid.

I think it works.

Whaddya say - isn't it a beauty?

I actually enjoy carrying it around. 

And that's all for now.

I'll return with interesting posts later.

Maybe.

/Lea Binta

Realization | Time

Since I started my new job, time has just flown by! I get up, go to work, go home, fall onto the couch and attempt to gather enough energy together to make dinner. 

Make dinner, eat dinner, clear the table, cuddle the dog, kiss my husband, and then I'm dead. I sit on the couch and watch some tv, and I'm just so tired. And then I go to sleep. 

I don't really read anymore. I don't crochet, I don't bake, I don't draw. 

I hardly ever listen to music anymore. 

It's draining.

Don't get me wrong - I really do like my new job, but this lack of energy is tough. I realize it'll get better as I get accustomed to working like this, but right now it's just-.. well, tiring.

And I miss studying. I miss being out of work. 

I miss having the time and energy to be spontaneous. I'm a spontaneous person - it's a part of who I am, but it requires some energy. Energy that I don't have right now. And I kind of miss myself. 

I realize now how privileged I was before. How much time I really had on my hands! And how much of that time I wasted on the couch, watching lousy tv shows. 

When I go back to studying I will most likely still spend too much time on the couch watching lousy tv, but it will not come close to how much I did it before. Time and energy should be used properly and effectively. At least sometimes. 

Now, if you'll excuse me, I really need to go to bed. 

/Lea Binta