Thankful | Migraines

I had coffee with my brother today. Nothing fancy, just in my livingroom, with River Cottage on in the background. We talked awhile about his plans for the future. I remember being 19. How exciting everything was. All the possibilities. Now I'm 24, and life is still exciting. Yet, sometimes I need to be reminded that life is exciting. Like this weekend. Friday was a hard day, but when it was over it was wonderful. We finished our 40-page report we've been struggling with for the past couple of months. Saturday I was in bed with a migraine. I have monthly migraines, no biggie, but this one was rough. I spent all of Saturday in bed. Usually a couple of pills and a nap cures it. Not this time. I thought it might be over by Sunday. It wasn't. It got better, but never completely disappeared. In the end I got so sick of it I just ignored it. We had sushi with a friend, and it was wonderful. Except for the fact that my head was still quietly exploding every now and then. Surely it would be over by the time I woke up this morning. It wasn't, not completely. I still had this numbing pain behind my forehead,  but I had to get up. I had to hand in that report. So I did. And now, the migraine is finally gone.
A weekend spent in bed with a migraine is no fun. Days like that don't feel exciting. I start thinking how life isn't fair. How it isn't fair that I have to deal with monthly migraines, while others go through life without ever encountering one. I start complaining, I start having negative thoughts.  I start to get sick of my life. I forget that I have many more good, exciting days than I have days with migraines. Focusing on the negative causes you to forget the positive, although the positive should far outweight the negative.

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I have a wonderful, exciting life,

but sometimes I forget.

I need to be reminded that the bad days don't overpower the good days,

because they don't.

I would never trade in my life for someone else's, 

not even if it meant being rid of the monthly migraines.

If this life requires a migraine now and then, 

then that's how it's going to be.

I'll take it.

- Lea Binta

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